Reasons I Like Him/Shouldn't Like Him

As time goes on, it is becoming more and more apparent that I tend to always like the wrong boys and like them for the completely wrong reasons, namely because I just want to be liked. I have this problem in every area of my life - I find it really hard to understand why people don't like me and will go out of my way to make sure that I win people over. Anyway, my main issue at the moment? I have a major crush on my longest term (ex) boyfriends, old best friend. They are still 'friends' but not the kind that spend lots of time together, the kind that will meet up in a blue moon and have a really good night out. I think this is one of the reasons I like him, to be honest.

I like his hands, I've always liked nice hands. He makes me laugh, I turned around when I was with him a few weeks ago and he'd tied my scarf around his head like a member of the Taliban. Amusing, to say the least. My filthy mind doesn't affect him - the world will soon realise I have a male sex drive trapped in my female body, he seems quite happy to contend with this. He is tall and picks me up when he cuddles me. He even looks cute when he lays around in his trackies. When he drinks tea he doesn't take sugar or milk, just a teabag dunked in the water for a few seconds. He has nice arms and even just a quick cuddle feels amazing. Eskimo kisses are second nature. Sigh, why do I do this to myself?

He changes his mind too often. He feels guilty about my ex/his friend, even though we broke up over two years ago and he's moved on. He blows hot and cold, this time he seems more keen than he ever has before. He is the kind of guy that girls like. He doesn't seem to have girlfriends. His best friend told me he likes being single and he hasn't really ever known him to have girlfriends. His best friend is all for us - even though I've ended up in bed with him. That's a problem in itself really, I've ended up, very secretly, in bed with his best friend. I fall for people too easily and put myself too much on the line. Sigh, sigh, sigh some more.

He is coming over on Friday night. 

We'll kiss in bed & see where this journey takes us <3